A Birthday Story: How year 26 changed my growth game

I recently celebrated my 26th birthday and after which felt like an eternity, I finally feel at peace. It’s a calming I can’t really describe in words but  can only compare to the comfort you feel as soon as you release your bra after a long day at work. That’s how I felt the moment I turned 26. I’ve been on fast forward since the year began and haven’t had a chance to really relax and take in all that’s going on around me. My mind wasn’t racing with thoughts for once. I was just empty. It was a good empty. For once I felt like I accomplished everything without doing anything at all. It was for the first time in a long time that I remembered who I was.

Internally, I’ve been battling with my next move when it comes to Art & Ambition. When I first created Art & Ambition in 2012, I saw it as only providing graphic designs for small businesses. Slowly I began adding my paintings to the collection and now I have over 10 styles of office products along with a large array of prints and paintings. I’ve programmed myself to see each year as a way to grow Art & Ambition and accomplish just a little more than I did the previous year.I This could be a bad thing at times because I’m extremely hard on myself when I feel stagnant. I don’t know if it’s considered a disorder but I have a fear of staying the same, honestly. If something isn’t changing, I begin to  have anxiety attacks on the regular. In my personal life it has made me a serial dater but in my business life it's helped me explore an variety of mediums and expand my audience.

So as I’m trying to figure out what the heck I’m going to do new this year in order to better than the 25 year old self, this wave of calmness falls over me. It was like Jesus himself arrived and told me that it’s all figured out. Many may have noticed that I've drifted away from painting on canvases on the regular.  My style have become more character-like. This year I want to get a little more personal with my supporters. After sponsoring two successful events that were created by women of color for women of color, I now see that my art can reach others in more ways than one. I want to continue to sponsor events for women of color and in due time create my own magical events. That means allowing my supporters to see me from the inside for once and get into my personal bubble.

I created the design Sprout while going through a personal growth. I was stuck in a connection with someone who was extremely toxic to my life. Reality is I was so busy with the daily tasks of Art & Ambition, enjoying friends birthdays, being there for family and trying to make sure my hair grows, that I didn’t realize the grey cloud this person had hovering over me. It’s a bit ironic because when the new year came I spoke a lot about releasing negative relationships/friendship and here I was blinded to a sponge that sucked a lot of happiness out of my life. However, it happens to the best of us and we should embrace it. As much as I didn't want to admit it, I was growing backwards while allowing this person to steal my joy. The day I painted Sprout was a symbol of me planting the seeds of good vibes back into my life. This is just one window into my life and I intend on opening up more with my artwork. 

As far as the events, if you have something you'd like me to be part of, sponsor, donate to or just visit please send me an email! This is a new path for me and Art & Ambition and I'm excited to start the journey. 

xoxo Addie 

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